Cross posted on Medium Image: https://unsplash.com/photos/nJupV3AOP-U But want and need are two different things. And I need this. As I write this, tears are on the verge of spilling over already puffy eyes. The clench in my stomach and pain in my back are making it hard to think. I’m trying to do busy work […]
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When My Daughter Cut Her Locs, I Cried I was afraid that her releasing her locs was also a way for her to release me. *** We Are Not Our Ancestors’ Wildest Dreams. We are our Ancestors. What we remember as the past cannot actually be “past” because we are continuously making and remaking that […]
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I’ve been doing a bunch of writing on Medium, and have completely abandoned this space! Here is a round up of everything I’ve written so far. Fences is not the Problem. Black Elitism Is A response to a NYT article about a Black mother angry that her son might have to read August Wilson’s play […]
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My kids think I’m a school (district) troublemaker. I appreciate that moniker. I make trouble for equity. I make trouble for Black and Brown and Indigenous children. I make trouble to make sure kids get what they need. I make trouble for liberation. I don’t coddle White Supremacy. I don’t stand for racism. I’m spending […]
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I’ve started a Medium channel to better represent my research interests, and how they intersect with my life as a parent with a mental illness. I’ll still post on here things that are more personal, and will try to do so at least once a week. I’ll also cross post here so the folks who […]
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I love to write. I love coming on here, translating my emotions — all my writing begins with emotion — into thought, thought into words. My thoughts, like most, are not linear in nature; they fill the space of my mind and require a certain type of wrangling to discipline them, to get them into […]
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Yesterday, I looked at myself in the mirror and was unhappy with what I saw. I’m working through my own fat phobias, but when I saw my body through my eyes, I felt really … bad. I’m at the heaviest I’ve ever been, after having a whole life of seeing myself as skinny. In the […]
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I’m going to try my very best to take a social media break through the end of the year. This time of the year gets me both hypomanic and depressed. I’m energized by the shopping, and shopping is a huge issue for me when I’m hypomanic. I’m depressed by the darkness and the COVID circumstances. […]
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As a kid, I had all types of ailments. Now I know that I hold my emotions in my body, but then I didn’t know that. I just knew that I hurt. Some things were completely internal. During my teen years I had a perpetual stomachache due to influences inside and out. My back ached, […]
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Often, I say to myself, “I’m going to write on my blog at least three times a week.” A week ago, that was my plan. I’m told that’s how to sustain readership, by having consistent “content.” How do you know you are a writer? Writers write. But I never follow all the way through. I’ll […]
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